Today I actually didn't have to wear a coat at all. It was a beautiful thing. Wonderful in every way in fact. =)
It is nearly spring and I am boy crazy. Okay, actually I am not really. I generally cannot be referred to as "boy crazy," however, I am hearing the luring sound of birds and bees and silly crushes that mean nothing. :p
Tomorrow I work early and not a really long shift, so I am planning on writing a letter to an old friend. Did I mention that in my last post?? Yeah, well I have been meaning to do it this week and kept putting it off. I want to do it when I really have a lot of time to sit and write forever without being interrupted. I am both looking forward to it and dreading it, mostly for reasons that are too much to explain.
On another note...
Chris Davlin! Where ARE you?!?!?!
Now that I have said your name on my blog, perhaps you will randomly google yourself and see that I want to know. hehehe. Sneaky. Sly even.
Seriously though, I haven't seen my friend Chris Davlin in five kajillion years and I miss him. We were pals ya know?! I want him to come to town and drink some coffee with me (or tea), and then go do something really silly as if we were teenagers again. That would be fun. In fact, that would be so wonderful that I wouldn't even have to do anything fun for the whole rest of the year!!! I would just glide by on the joy of that one occasion!!!!
You hear that Chris Davlin?!?!?!?!
COME OUT OF YOUR HIDEY HOLE!!!!!! =)
*sigh*
My heart is kind of sad this week. I mentioned this before. It's nothing unbearable. It will pass. Still, I just can't help it nor seem to explain it. Luckily, other than that I am pretty well. Money is tight, but what's really new there?!?! Ha! Life is good and I can't really complain about it...too much. :p At least, now that it's warming up a bit!!
Oh, there is nothing like a good cold front to make you truly appreciate spring. I feel as if it is the most glorious thing in the world!!
Okay, I have to get up really early to go to work, so I probably should head in that direction.
Listening to: Indigo Girls "Swamp Ophelia" So Awesome.
Friday, March 07, 2008
Back after a long absence...
Well, I am finally a bit settled into the new apartment and Spokane is going just fine so far.
I am getting used to a new laptop so my typing feels a bit off.
Currently I am so exhausted that I think I might fall asleep typing this at any second!
Today was a long day. It ended with a nice chat on the phone with my friend Caleb in L.A. who I have not spoken to in awhile, so that was nice. =)
Yay for my friends!!
Work is going pretty well here. I don't really have complaints. Of course I will add a lot more information later, it's just that right now I can barely keep my eyes open!! Oh, and such a headache! I am having a nice glass of wine though, which is only helping me to go to sleep sooner.
The past couple of days I have been taking a trip down memory lane...mostly due to the fact that I really need to write a letter to my best friend from high school, etc. I got an address for her recently and it's just been tooooo long! Anyway, I was thinking about her and the sad direction her life has taken, and also my friend Chris who we used to hang out with. I don't know why, but it makes my heart sad. I wish they were still in my life.
Anyway, hopefully this is my reentry to the blogosphere. I have been reading a bit lately, and one of these days I will have to post a list so that Joe can make fun of me for being ten (or however many) books behind!! haha!!
To sleep for now!
I am getting used to a new laptop so my typing feels a bit off.
Currently I am so exhausted that I think I might fall asleep typing this at any second!
Today was a long day. It ended with a nice chat on the phone with my friend Caleb in L.A. who I have not spoken to in awhile, so that was nice. =)
Yay for my friends!!
Work is going pretty well here. I don't really have complaints. Of course I will add a lot more information later, it's just that right now I can barely keep my eyes open!! Oh, and such a headache! I am having a nice glass of wine though, which is only helping me to go to sleep sooner.
The past couple of days I have been taking a trip down memory lane...mostly due to the fact that I really need to write a letter to my best friend from high school, etc. I got an address for her recently and it's just been tooooo long! Anyway, I was thinking about her and the sad direction her life has taken, and also my friend Chris who we used to hang out with. I don't know why, but it makes my heart sad. I wish they were still in my life.
Anyway, hopefully this is my reentry to the blogosphere. I have been reading a bit lately, and one of these days I will have to post a list so that Joe can make fun of me for being ten (or however many) books behind!! haha!!
To sleep for now!
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Somewhere Out There..
Sorry folks. I am out in lala land right now!!! Ha!
Actually, I drove far far away from San Antonio, back to Washington. I found a darling apartment and I am trying to get everything settled. I probably will not be posting much because I am busy, but I also have not set up my internet or anything yet, and I am not sure when exactly I will.
So, I just wanted to give a little heads up.
There are certain things I want to comment on, and perhaps those things will be a little more fleshed out by the time I get around to posting again. Something to look forward to?!
Ooh! Pictures too! I have taken a couple of all the snow, and of a tiny town I drove through on the way home...which is darling! So I will also get those onto my laptop at a later time.
For now I just wanted to say; HELLO OUT THERE!!!!!! =)
Actually, I drove far far away from San Antonio, back to Washington. I found a darling apartment and I am trying to get everything settled. I probably will not be posting much because I am busy, but I also have not set up my internet or anything yet, and I am not sure when exactly I will.
So, I just wanted to give a little heads up.
There are certain things I want to comment on, and perhaps those things will be a little more fleshed out by the time I get around to posting again. Something to look forward to?!
Ooh! Pictures too! I have taken a couple of all the snow, and of a tiny town I drove through on the way home...which is darling! So I will also get those onto my laptop at a later time.
For now I just wanted to say; HELLO OUT THERE!!!!!! =)
Friday, January 11, 2008
Grey's Anatomy...
Someone got me thinking today about some of my favorite show endings.
Last season there was a wonderful episode end of Bones, where they played a song called "Bring on the Wonder," by Susan Enan. The particular version of the song that aired also featured Sarah McLaughlin. I have searched everywhere for that version but can't find it. I did, however, add Susan Enan to my friends list on myspace and was able to listen to another version of the song there.
I am also particularly moved by that Anna Nalick song "Breathe." I know that by now we have all heard it a zillion times, but I never get tired of it. I don't know why. What's funny is that the song ALWAYS makes me think of Grey's Anatomy, because when it first came out it aired on an episode that sticks out in my mind. It was right after the Superbowl so they hyped it up. If you watch the show, you will remember the episode where the guy has a bomb...I forget the exact details of the device, but something homemade...stuck in his chest.
Despite the fact that it was nearly two years ago, I always remember that song on that episode. Crazy.
It just goes to show how much television also impacts music.
Remember when Buffy used to be on, and all these folks (including Michelle Branch and Aimee Mann) were seen playing at the Bronze?
Okay, so music lead me to looking up some clips on YouTube.
I am telling you, there have been a couple of moments on Grey's Anatomy where they have just ripped my heart out and handed it back to me on a platter. Like the episode where Denny dies, and Izzy lies on the floor for a whole day in a big pink prom dress? That is so like grief. I can relate to that episode. This one is my fave though, and I had to post it.
As far as I know, a fan made this video and no big congloms are thereby getting money out of me by putting it on my blog. If that is untrue and I am naive, please somebody tell me and I will take it off until another day. =) This scene is exactly why I love writers. Brilliant...and OH SO WELL executed by Sandra Oh.
Last season there was a wonderful episode end of Bones, where they played a song called "Bring on the Wonder," by Susan Enan. The particular version of the song that aired also featured Sarah McLaughlin. I have searched everywhere for that version but can't find it. I did, however, add Susan Enan to my friends list on myspace and was able to listen to another version of the song there.
I am also particularly moved by that Anna Nalick song "Breathe." I know that by now we have all heard it a zillion times, but I never get tired of it. I don't know why. What's funny is that the song ALWAYS makes me think of Grey's Anatomy, because when it first came out it aired on an episode that sticks out in my mind. It was right after the Superbowl so they hyped it up. If you watch the show, you will remember the episode where the guy has a bomb...I forget the exact details of the device, but something homemade...stuck in his chest.
Despite the fact that it was nearly two years ago, I always remember that song on that episode. Crazy.
It just goes to show how much television also impacts music.
Remember when Buffy used to be on, and all these folks (including Michelle Branch and Aimee Mann) were seen playing at the Bronze?
Okay, so music lead me to looking up some clips on YouTube.
I am telling you, there have been a couple of moments on Grey's Anatomy where they have just ripped my heart out and handed it back to me on a platter. Like the episode where Denny dies, and Izzy lies on the floor for a whole day in a big pink prom dress? That is so like grief. I can relate to that episode. This one is my fave though, and I had to post it.
As far as I know, a fan made this video and no big congloms are thereby getting money out of me by putting it on my blog. If that is untrue and I am naive, please somebody tell me and I will take it off until another day. =) This scene is exactly why I love writers. Brilliant...and OH SO WELL executed by Sandra Oh.
Hang In There Writers!
My life is a strange and mysterious place. heh.
For the past month I have been like a house divided. I am completely split down the middle over remaining in Texas or going home to Washington.
I think I know what my heart wants to do...which is totally different from what my gut is telling me to do, so I have no idea what to do.
Everytime I think I have made a decision, it later gets upheaved!
Last night I had this crazy dream. I can't remember all of it, but the important part was this. I was out in the middle of this big lake. Swimming across I think, when all of sudden the water starting fighting me. Literally. On my left side the water started rising into a big wave as if to overwhelm me, and on the other side it started roiling around out of control. I was very close to drowning...and you won't believe what I did then. It was kind of odd.
I balled my hands into fist and I slapped the left one down onto the surface of the water and screamed "I AM ONE!" then I repeated it on the right side. I kept doing this, shrieking, until the water calmed down and I was slapping a serene surface.
My friends had already run away, thinking me lost.
I went to find them.
The part that strikes me about this dream is it's very real representation of the battle being waged inside of me.
*sigh*
Okay, in totally unrelated news....I am obsessed with the Writer's Strike.
Could any tv junkie not be? Aside from my general fandom though, I feel for these people. The AMPTP wants to hand them a shitty deal and thinks that they will just take it and cower back into their little writing caves.
The sheer audacity of those with money just blows me away.
Are we just supposed to roll over and die so they can make more money off of us?!
Yeah, in case you hadn't noticed, I DO take it personally.
My entire family is middle class America. I totally get how Unions are important in this industry. It is being displayed for me right now. If those were my family members on the picket lines, I would want them to get a fair deal.
What they are asking for is so reasonable!!! It is just freaking nuts that the AMPTP does not come back and negotiate. They haven't even been back to the table in 35 DAYS!!!! I mean, come on people!
Things are heating up right now because Tom Hanks gave a statement to Rueters, saying that the AMPTP should negotiate and get people back to work. He is the first A-lister to speak up and a lot of people are hoping that he is just just the beginning.
Then there is this whole fight over the Late-Night shows...Leno and Kimmel currently being at the top of the nit-pick list.
They are writing their own stuff and they are not supposed to be. The Guild is saying they are going to penalize them...which they should if they would penalize anyone else for the same thing...and many people are afraid that if they do that they might lost a lot of public support. Frankly, I think that in that case, the public should pull its head out of its collective ass, and realize that Jay Leno isn't Rah, and that the guild should not bow down to him. Grr.
Conan, just to give him a smidge of credit, has been improvising his shows, rather than writing a monologue. He is also a member of the guild.
Now, some people say that improvising is the same as writing, but I disagree, and in any case, it shows that he is still TRYING to support his fellow writers, whether he has been forced to go back on the air or not.
People are also saying they are getting tired of Letterman constantly commenting on the strike and the writers getting a fair deal, but I say; GO DAVE!!! Since the AMPTP own major media, who else is going to report on it?!?! You can bet your ass than CBS is piiiiissed at Letterman right now.
In any case, I wish that more fans were aware of what exactly is going on. We are so one way or the other these days.
I mean, either we are FREAKY activist: Don't eat veggies! They're alive!" or we are not activist at all.
There are some battles WORTH fighting!
For the past month I have been like a house divided. I am completely split down the middle over remaining in Texas or going home to Washington.
I think I know what my heart wants to do...which is totally different from what my gut is telling me to do, so I have no idea what to do.
Everytime I think I have made a decision, it later gets upheaved!
Last night I had this crazy dream. I can't remember all of it, but the important part was this. I was out in the middle of this big lake. Swimming across I think, when all of sudden the water starting fighting me. Literally. On my left side the water started rising into a big wave as if to overwhelm me, and on the other side it started roiling around out of control. I was very close to drowning...and you won't believe what I did then. It was kind of odd.
I balled my hands into fist and I slapped the left one down onto the surface of the water and screamed "I AM ONE!" then I repeated it on the right side. I kept doing this, shrieking, until the water calmed down and I was slapping a serene surface.
My friends had already run away, thinking me lost.
I went to find them.
The part that strikes me about this dream is it's very real representation of the battle being waged inside of me.
*sigh*
Okay, in totally unrelated news....I am obsessed with the Writer's Strike.
Could any tv junkie not be? Aside from my general fandom though, I feel for these people. The AMPTP wants to hand them a shitty deal and thinks that they will just take it and cower back into their little writing caves.
The sheer audacity of those with money just blows me away.
Are we just supposed to roll over and die so they can make more money off of us?!
Yeah, in case you hadn't noticed, I DO take it personally.
My entire family is middle class America. I totally get how Unions are important in this industry. It is being displayed for me right now. If those were my family members on the picket lines, I would want them to get a fair deal.
What they are asking for is so reasonable!!! It is just freaking nuts that the AMPTP does not come back and negotiate. They haven't even been back to the table in 35 DAYS!!!! I mean, come on people!
Things are heating up right now because Tom Hanks gave a statement to Rueters, saying that the AMPTP should negotiate and get people back to work. He is the first A-lister to speak up and a lot of people are hoping that he is just just the beginning.
Then there is this whole fight over the Late-Night shows...Leno and Kimmel currently being at the top of the nit-pick list.
They are writing their own stuff and they are not supposed to be. The Guild is saying they are going to penalize them...which they should if they would penalize anyone else for the same thing...and many people are afraid that if they do that they might lost a lot of public support. Frankly, I think that in that case, the public should pull its head out of its collective ass, and realize that Jay Leno isn't Rah, and that the guild should not bow down to him. Grr.
Conan, just to give him a smidge of credit, has been improvising his shows, rather than writing a monologue. He is also a member of the guild.
Now, some people say that improvising is the same as writing, but I disagree, and in any case, it shows that he is still TRYING to support his fellow writers, whether he has been forced to go back on the air or not.
People are also saying they are getting tired of Letterman constantly commenting on the strike and the writers getting a fair deal, but I say; GO DAVE!!! Since the AMPTP own major media, who else is going to report on it?!?! You can bet your ass than CBS is piiiiissed at Letterman right now.
In any case, I wish that more fans were aware of what exactly is going on. We are so one way or the other these days.
I mean, either we are FREAKY activist: Don't eat veggies! They're alive!" or we are not activist at all.
There are some battles WORTH fighting!
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
New Year's Resolution....
I make the same one every year. At least, in recent years.
My NYR is to read more books than Joe does this year. Obviously, as I keep making it, I have yet to ever do it. Not from a lack of being able to read as fast as Joe does, but more along the lines of losing my committment here and there along the way. :p
A couple of years ago I started out brilliantly...I read seven books the first week of 2006. That is a book a day! Wooo! Okay, yes, I had that particular week off (obviously). Of course, after that my reading tapered down until an entire month had gone by without my reading anything.
I love to read but I get distracted by so many other things. It's rather sad really.
Still, this resolution is on the list of things to do before I die, so I will keep making it until one day I have achieved victory...and not because Joe was in a coma or on some strange asian getaway where he had limited access to books.
A normal Joe kind of year. :p
Not a lot else to say.
To be honest, I haven't posted lately because I haven't felt like "talking" to anyone. I have decisions I need to make...things on my mind...I just have no desire to rehash them here right now.
I feel politically disgruntled, and you all know by now how I feel about the writer's strike. Perhaps I will comment on that again soon, but for now...this is all you get.
=)
My NYR is to read more books than Joe does this year. Obviously, as I keep making it, I have yet to ever do it. Not from a lack of being able to read as fast as Joe does, but more along the lines of losing my committment here and there along the way. :p
A couple of years ago I started out brilliantly...I read seven books the first week of 2006. That is a book a day! Wooo! Okay, yes, I had that particular week off (obviously). Of course, after that my reading tapered down until an entire month had gone by without my reading anything.
I love to read but I get distracted by so many other things. It's rather sad really.
Still, this resolution is on the list of things to do before I die, so I will keep making it until one day I have achieved victory...and not because Joe was in a coma or on some strange asian getaway where he had limited access to books.
A normal Joe kind of year. :p
Not a lot else to say.
To be honest, I haven't posted lately because I haven't felt like "talking" to anyone. I have decisions I need to make...things on my mind...I just have no desire to rehash them here right now.
I feel politically disgruntled, and you all know by now how I feel about the writer's strike. Perhaps I will comment on that again soon, but for now...this is all you get.
=)
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Pathetic Am I :p
Been busy, what can I say?
Work has been overloading my brain! It's nice to have a couple of days off. Last week was also a rough week. Just the reality of being 2000 miles away from home for Christmas. Generally, even when I don't live there, I always go home for Christmas. So, I was feeling pretty emotional a couple of days, and coming up with all of these reasons to move home.
I am feeling much better now.
I think as I get older it gets harder to roam to and fro. Almost all of my friends are married now, and most have kids. Everybody is settled down and I guess I am feeling that pull to be near friends and family.
Anyway, I have probably mentioned this many times before.
For awhile now, most of the time I have been in San Antonio, I have been feeling this constant stretching feeling. Being here, though good, has also been very hard. I have definitely grown. I have felt all along though, that I was supposed to be here. I can't really explain it.
In any case, that is what keeps me here. It would be easier for me to go home and be able to work at Starbucks, which I love even when I hate it. haha!
My new job is going to be boring and tedious, but I am going to do whatever I have to do until I feel released to do the next thing.
There are some things in life that I just do not understand, and my being here is one of them!!!! haha!
It's good though. It's great being only two hours from Becky and being able to drive down and visit sometimes. We have great times.
Merry Christmas to all of you reading this. I hope your Holiday is tremendously blessed. Take time to stop and remember the reason for the season.
Much love coming your way from San Antonio!
Work has been overloading my brain! It's nice to have a couple of days off. Last week was also a rough week. Just the reality of being 2000 miles away from home for Christmas. Generally, even when I don't live there, I always go home for Christmas. So, I was feeling pretty emotional a couple of days, and coming up with all of these reasons to move home.
I am feeling much better now.
I think as I get older it gets harder to roam to and fro. Almost all of my friends are married now, and most have kids. Everybody is settled down and I guess I am feeling that pull to be near friends and family.
Anyway, I have probably mentioned this many times before.
For awhile now, most of the time I have been in San Antonio, I have been feeling this constant stretching feeling. Being here, though good, has also been very hard. I have definitely grown. I have felt all along though, that I was supposed to be here. I can't really explain it.
In any case, that is what keeps me here. It would be easier for me to go home and be able to work at Starbucks, which I love even when I hate it. haha!
My new job is going to be boring and tedious, but I am going to do whatever I have to do until I feel released to do the next thing.
There are some things in life that I just do not understand, and my being here is one of them!!!! haha!
It's good though. It's great being only two hours from Becky and being able to drive down and visit sometimes. We have great times.
Merry Christmas to all of you reading this. I hope your Holiday is tremendously blessed. Take time to stop and remember the reason for the season.
Much love coming your way from San Antonio!
Thursday, December 13, 2007
JOE SHERRY ROCKS MY FACE OFF! WOOHOO!
Okay, so I have been meaning to post this entry for two days now.
I am not so used to my schedule. It's not a rough one, just different, and I have had plenty to do when I get home lately. By the time I get around to blogging I have been exhausted.
So anyway...
Joe gets the blog title this week for giving me a heads up on the Wheel of Time info. When Robert Jordan died and he didn't rush straight to email to let me know, I gave him a really hard time. hehe. :p
WAHOOO! Harriet has picked a writer for a Memory of Light, which is great news. Althouth I know nothing about this guy, noone could make a better decision than her. It won't be the same, but I know it will be as close as possible.
Possible release date of Fall 2009!!!! I am STOKED about that!! Wooo!
Thanks Joe, for the heads up.
I still check dragonmount, but who knows how many days might have gone by before I visited the site again.
Okay, this is a two part blog.
I asked you guys for blogging topics, and Lara told me that I should blog about what I would personally do if my potential employers were reading my blog.
Ugh.
Hard for me to imagine.
Honestly, the first thing I would probably do would be to change my blog address. lol! I realise that Lara has way too big a fan base to do that, but I don't have that problem. In fact, I could personally email everyone I know of who reads this blog, and direct them to the new place, thereby resolving the issue.
Of course, I really don't WANT to resort to moving my blog. So....hmm.
I guess it depends if I get the job. haha. If this is a job that I want and they have already read my blog...well, what can you do? What's done is done. That doesn't mean that I am feeling comfortable with my boss reading my blog and my not being able to vent about any work related issues, possibly including the fact that one of my supervisors is a snake.
So, if I get the job and keep it, I am moving my blog...or password protecting the entire thing.
If, on the other hand, I interviewed, but they hate me because of my blog or my personality (whatever), or I decide not to take the job for whatever reason...then I really don't care. Read away people!
At that point, they can't affect me professionally, and since I am most likely not going to see them again, or only coincidentally, it isn't that big of a deal.
When it comes to people in my personal sphere though...then I have a tendency to feel exposed or threatened. I like to be in control of what the people surrounding me know about me, as much as is possible. People out there....it's a bit different. Weird huh? I am sure that I am not the only one who feels that way however.
I am thinking of some things to post in response to Jill's suggestion as well. In the meantime, keep 'em comin'!! My brain is way too fried to think up my own topics. Today in training we had about half an hour left and I was ready to get up and run around the room screaming....just to have something else to do. The material is not particularly difficult, it's just taking it all in at once and remembering it!!! Easier said than done.
Wish me luck!
I am not so used to my schedule. It's not a rough one, just different, and I have had plenty to do when I get home lately. By the time I get around to blogging I have been exhausted.
So anyway...
Joe gets the blog title this week for giving me a heads up on the Wheel of Time info. When Robert Jordan died and he didn't rush straight to email to let me know, I gave him a really hard time. hehe. :p
WAHOOO! Harriet has picked a writer for a Memory of Light, which is great news. Althouth I know nothing about this guy, noone could make a better decision than her. It won't be the same, but I know it will be as close as possible.
Possible release date of Fall 2009!!!! I am STOKED about that!! Wooo!
Thanks Joe, for the heads up.
I still check dragonmount, but who knows how many days might have gone by before I visited the site again.
Okay, this is a two part blog.
I asked you guys for blogging topics, and Lara told me that I should blog about what I would personally do if my potential employers were reading my blog.
Ugh.
Hard for me to imagine.
Honestly, the first thing I would probably do would be to change my blog address. lol! I realise that Lara has way too big a fan base to do that, but I don't have that problem. In fact, I could personally email everyone I know of who reads this blog, and direct them to the new place, thereby resolving the issue.
Of course, I really don't WANT to resort to moving my blog. So....hmm.
I guess it depends if I get the job. haha. If this is a job that I want and they have already read my blog...well, what can you do? What's done is done. That doesn't mean that I am feeling comfortable with my boss reading my blog and my not being able to vent about any work related issues, possibly including the fact that one of my supervisors is a snake.
So, if I get the job and keep it, I am moving my blog...or password protecting the entire thing.
If, on the other hand, I interviewed, but they hate me because of my blog or my personality (whatever), or I decide not to take the job for whatever reason...then I really don't care. Read away people!
At that point, they can't affect me professionally, and since I am most likely not going to see them again, or only coincidentally, it isn't that big of a deal.
When it comes to people in my personal sphere though...then I have a tendency to feel exposed or threatened. I like to be in control of what the people surrounding me know about me, as much as is possible. People out there....it's a bit different. Weird huh? I am sure that I am not the only one who feels that way however.
I am thinking of some things to post in response to Jill's suggestion as well. In the meantime, keep 'em comin'!! My brain is way too fried to think up my own topics. Today in training we had about half an hour left and I was ready to get up and run around the room screaming....just to have something else to do. The material is not particularly difficult, it's just taking it all in at once and remembering it!!! Easier said than done.
Wish me luck!
Monday, December 10, 2007
Invitation...
By the way (for the whole three of you that actually read this blog! ha!), I am up for blogging suggestions at the moment. So, if there is a topic or two that you would just love to hear my commentary on, or any questions that you are just dying to ask....feel free.
It could be fun. It could be amusing. It could be revealing!
Mwah!
P.S. One of the big bonuses of not having a kazillion readers and not being THAT incredibly interesting, is that unlike Lara, potential employers do NOT read my blog. I like to keep my anonymity. :p
Go tiny blogging me!
Woo!
It could be fun. It could be amusing. It could be revealing!
Mwah!
P.S. One of the big bonuses of not having a kazillion readers and not being THAT incredibly interesting, is that unlike Lara, potential employers do NOT read my blog. I like to keep my anonymity. :p
Go tiny blogging me!
Woo!
Bloggin' bloggin' bloggin'...
So, Jill asked for an update on my new job. However, since I just started the training today, there is not much I can say about it. Essentially I work for an insurance company, dealing with benefits information, etc etc. Not terribly exciting. In fact, I am going to be bored to tears. I have done these kinds of jobs before and they don't perfectly suit me.
It is, however, a means to an end...as I have said before. Everyone there seems really nice, which is a big bonus.
It may not be the job I have for the next three years, but I will do it for as long as I can without pulling out my hair or someone elses. :p
Actually, I am hoping to save a lot of money the first part of 08. That will be good. So, there are definitely up sides.
And who knows, maybe there is a perfect job up ahead. *shrug*
In any case, I get to wear jeans to work, which is pretty much the highlight of my existence. That's just how I roll. =)
In fact, just in case I die prematurely, perhaps by being stepped on by an elephant, or falling off the roof one day, I would like to say here and now, in writing for all the world to see, that I prefer to be buried in my blue jeans. Ahh yeah baby. ;)
It is cold and foggy in San Antone today and I love it. =) I've been thinking lately about the West coast. Like, I don't care where I live in the future, as long as it is somewhere on the west coast. Things are just so completely different. I don't even care which state it is....Washington, Oregon, California....they are all good options as far as I am concerned. In fact, in Oregon, I wouldn't even have to pump my own gas. :p It's the simple things you know. ha!
Then again, California has In n' Out Burger. ;)
...Well....it's a toss up, what can I say?
=)
It is, however, a means to an end...as I have said before. Everyone there seems really nice, which is a big bonus.
It may not be the job I have for the next three years, but I will do it for as long as I can without pulling out my hair or someone elses. :p
Actually, I am hoping to save a lot of money the first part of 08. That will be good. So, there are definitely up sides.
And who knows, maybe there is a perfect job up ahead. *shrug*
In any case, I get to wear jeans to work, which is pretty much the highlight of my existence. That's just how I roll. =)
In fact, just in case I die prematurely, perhaps by being stepped on by an elephant, or falling off the roof one day, I would like to say here and now, in writing for all the world to see, that I prefer to be buried in my blue jeans. Ahh yeah baby. ;)
It is cold and foggy in San Antone today and I love it. =) I've been thinking lately about the West coast. Like, I don't care where I live in the future, as long as it is somewhere on the west coast. Things are just so completely different. I don't even care which state it is....Washington, Oregon, California....they are all good options as far as I am concerned. In fact, in Oregon, I wouldn't even have to pump my own gas. :p It's the simple things you know. ha!
Then again, California has In n' Out Burger. ;)
...Well....it's a toss up, what can I say?
=)
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Ugh and even more Ugh.
It is so not fun when I really want to talk to someone, and they could genuinely care less about talking to me. I suppose they have much better things to do with their time!!
You know, I generally do not waste my time on these sorts of situations. I find things to distract myself until the desire goes away. Unfortunately, that is not really working out this time!! Phoo.
Soo....I dunno. I guess I am just going to have to deal with that feeling. Bleh.
In other news, I have a possible roommate situation with one of my old DTS friends. She is a really great person, but we are both pretty set in our ways and I do have my doubts. It's the best prospect I have however, and if it works out then that will be good.
I start the new job tomorrow so we will see how that goes.
I am not terribly excited about it, but I am prepared to sink my teeth in and do the best job I can. It is a means to an end.
I was looking into some community college classes, but the tuition here for non-residents is out of control. So, for now I am going to focus on other things, and hope to save some money for whatever is ahead. Including my trip to Europe with Becky in the fall! Woo! Still crossing my fingers that is all going to work out ok.
So, things are not looking good with the writer's strike. I was hoping, probably somewhat naively, that the AMPTP would actually negotiate a good contract, rather than trying to screw the writers. Good Lord, it's NOT like those CEO's are not making plenty of money to spread the wealth around. Half of the good tv is now on reruns and the rest is about to follow in the next couple of weeks.
With no end in sight, there is not a lot of hope for the spring.
It's okay for me. I will miss Bones, but I will also have plenty to keep me entertained in the coming months.
Unfortunately, people are so hooked on their tv's these days, they will probably just go out and buy a lot of shows on dvd to last through the strike. Sad, and I hope it doesn't happen, but possibly the case. I wish we could all rally for the writers...just on general principle. Workers deserve to be fairly compensated, but instead many workers just get buy, while CEO's of large corporations get richer and richer all the time.
Fortunately, my mother does not read this blog. If she did, she would tell me that it is all George Bush's fault, that he is the antichrist and is destroying America. I really hate talking politics with my mom. Regardless of my feelings on Bush, I generally just feel a stubborn desire to argue with her. No matter what the topic.
My mom is, however, a member of a union and I am pretty sure that she would stand with the writers on this. I guess that means we agree on something. I still don't want to talk about it. :p
Things are pretty well here in Texas. I have my good days and my bad days as we all do. There isn't really a lot else to say on the matter right now. I still have no idea what I am doing here, but I am just going with it. I am looking at it as an opportunity for growth. =)
You know, I generally do not waste my time on these sorts of situations. I find things to distract myself until the desire goes away. Unfortunately, that is not really working out this time!! Phoo.
Soo....I dunno. I guess I am just going to have to deal with that feeling. Bleh.
In other news, I have a possible roommate situation with one of my old DTS friends. She is a really great person, but we are both pretty set in our ways and I do have my doubts. It's the best prospect I have however, and if it works out then that will be good.
I start the new job tomorrow so we will see how that goes.
I am not terribly excited about it, but I am prepared to sink my teeth in and do the best job I can. It is a means to an end.
I was looking into some community college classes, but the tuition here for non-residents is out of control. So, for now I am going to focus on other things, and hope to save some money for whatever is ahead. Including my trip to Europe with Becky in the fall! Woo! Still crossing my fingers that is all going to work out ok.
So, things are not looking good with the writer's strike. I was hoping, probably somewhat naively, that the AMPTP would actually negotiate a good contract, rather than trying to screw the writers. Good Lord, it's NOT like those CEO's are not making plenty of money to spread the wealth around. Half of the good tv is now on reruns and the rest is about to follow in the next couple of weeks.
With no end in sight, there is not a lot of hope for the spring.
It's okay for me. I will miss Bones, but I will also have plenty to keep me entertained in the coming months.
Unfortunately, people are so hooked on their tv's these days, they will probably just go out and buy a lot of shows on dvd to last through the strike. Sad, and I hope it doesn't happen, but possibly the case. I wish we could all rally for the writers...just on general principle. Workers deserve to be fairly compensated, but instead many workers just get buy, while CEO's of large corporations get richer and richer all the time.
Fortunately, my mother does not read this blog. If she did, she would tell me that it is all George Bush's fault, that he is the antichrist and is destroying America. I really hate talking politics with my mom. Regardless of my feelings on Bush, I generally just feel a stubborn desire to argue with her. No matter what the topic.
My mom is, however, a member of a union and I am pretty sure that she would stand with the writers on this. I guess that means we agree on something. I still don't want to talk about it. :p
Things are pretty well here in Texas. I have my good days and my bad days as we all do. There isn't really a lot else to say on the matter right now. I still have no idea what I am doing here, but I am just going with it. I am looking at it as an opportunity for growth. =)
Sunday, December 02, 2007
Writers and Joss. My Favorite Things.
Somehow in the midst of the writer's strike and my own crazy life here in San Antonio, I am finding the desire to write things taking over and flowing through my veins again. It creeps up on me you know.
Anyway, I do plenty of writing away from this blog.
Today on the United Hollywood website, I read this post by Joss Whedon. Actually, it was originally posted on Whedonesque, which you can also get to by the link on the right hand side of this page.
It brings up a couple of interesting points, especially pertaining to the audacity of the AMPTP.
I am posting it here in its entirety.
Enjoy.
Joss Whedon Looks Into A Crystal Ball...
(From WGA Member Joss Whedon, originally posted on Whedonesque)
We're a week away from Mutant Enemy Picket day! Since the AMPTP have generously offered us a thimble of sputum in exchange for everything written ever, I think it's fair to say it won't be a picnic.
And in two weeks, I'll be in Boston, speechifying (look for some long, fancy words, yo) and rallying shoulder to shoulder with, among other people, my dad, who somehow lived through both the '88 strike and my adolescence. Word. (Long fancy.)
And after that? Well, we might take this to the streets of some other cities. Get the word out, remind everyone that corporate greed (it's nothing but) is hurting everyone in this country. Not just because they're robbing people of entertainment (and, on occasion, art) and strangling an entire (non-writing) community, but because they're sending a message to every union in the country: you're next. The actors know that in their case, it's literally true, but it's also true for the concept of a unionized workforce. We get a lot of flack for being well-fed, glamorous, rich and powerful. We've worked hard to dispel that stereotype but in fact, a select few of us are wealthy and influential. And we have the support of some of the most famous and beloved (and wealthy and influential) people in the country: TV and movie stars! So the fact that the studios feel perfectly comfortable SPITTING IN OUR FACES in front of the whole world cannot bode well for any other union that works under them -- or under anyone who sees how easy it is to deny the basic rights of workers even so public as we. This is bad for writers, bad for actors, teamsters, teachers, nurses, dockworkers... the shape of this country is changing. The middle class is being squeezed out. We're trundling back to the middle ages, people, and all we can do is lie there and take it.
But of course, that's not what's going to happen. The studios mean to starve us out. They can't. We know what's at stake. We take care of our own, and those around us who aren't our own. We dig in. And eventually, if after months of deadlock we still can't make an equitable deal, you will start to see real change. Change in the way we entertain you, change in the essential structure of America's most popular export. (Unless it's corn. Is it corn?) The fact is, the studios have been robbing us for twenty years. (Actually, it's been much longer, but the statute of limitations says I should let 'em off easy.) This grotesque insult of a negotiation is the end of an era. It will be remembered as the stupidest move the conglomotainment empires ever made. WE ASKED FOR PRACTICALLY NOTHING. And they...
Something snaps. Something changes. Chaos, meet opportunity. Let them try to starve us out. We won't just survive. We will THRIVE. We're known as a creative community, and those numb f#$%ing frost-giants are about to find out we're a lot more of both than they knew.
If they come back to the table this very Tuesday next with the deal we need (and they won't), the change will still have come. The snap. The thing that broke, that can't be fixed. The eye, still wincing from the light, but finally wide open.
Good going, guys! Way to think it through.
Anyway, I do plenty of writing away from this blog.
Today on the United Hollywood website, I read this post by Joss Whedon. Actually, it was originally posted on Whedonesque, which you can also get to by the link on the right hand side of this page.
It brings up a couple of interesting points, especially pertaining to the audacity of the AMPTP.
I am posting it here in its entirety.
Enjoy.
Joss Whedon Looks Into A Crystal Ball...
(From WGA Member Joss Whedon, originally posted on Whedonesque)
We're a week away from Mutant Enemy Picket day! Since the AMPTP have generously offered us a thimble of sputum in exchange for everything written ever, I think it's fair to say it won't be a picnic.
And in two weeks, I'll be in Boston, speechifying (look for some long, fancy words, yo) and rallying shoulder to shoulder with, among other people, my dad, who somehow lived through both the '88 strike and my adolescence. Word. (Long fancy.)
And after that? Well, we might take this to the streets of some other cities. Get the word out, remind everyone that corporate greed (it's nothing but) is hurting everyone in this country. Not just because they're robbing people of entertainment (and, on occasion, art) and strangling an entire (non-writing) community, but because they're sending a message to every union in the country: you're next. The actors know that in their case, it's literally true, but it's also true for the concept of a unionized workforce. We get a lot of flack for being well-fed, glamorous, rich and powerful. We've worked hard to dispel that stereotype but in fact, a select few of us are wealthy and influential. And we have the support of some of the most famous and beloved (and wealthy and influential) people in the country: TV and movie stars! So the fact that the studios feel perfectly comfortable SPITTING IN OUR FACES in front of the whole world cannot bode well for any other union that works under them -- or under anyone who sees how easy it is to deny the basic rights of workers even so public as we. This is bad for writers, bad for actors, teamsters, teachers, nurses, dockworkers... the shape of this country is changing. The middle class is being squeezed out. We're trundling back to the middle ages, people, and all we can do is lie there and take it.
But of course, that's not what's going to happen. The studios mean to starve us out. They can't. We know what's at stake. We take care of our own, and those around us who aren't our own. We dig in. And eventually, if after months of deadlock we still can't make an equitable deal, you will start to see real change. Change in the way we entertain you, change in the essential structure of America's most popular export. (Unless it's corn. Is it corn?) The fact is, the studios have been robbing us for twenty years. (Actually, it's been much longer, but the statute of limitations says I should let 'em off easy.) This grotesque insult of a negotiation is the end of an era. It will be remembered as the stupidest move the conglomotainment empires ever made. WE ASKED FOR PRACTICALLY NOTHING. And they...
Something snaps. Something changes. Chaos, meet opportunity. Let them try to starve us out. We won't just survive. We will THRIVE. We're known as a creative community, and those numb f#$%ing frost-giants are about to find out we're a lot more of both than they knew.
If they come back to the table this very Tuesday next with the deal we need (and they won't), the change will still have come. The snap. The thing that broke, that can't be fixed. The eye, still wincing from the light, but finally wide open.
Good going, guys! Way to think it through.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Small moments of happiness.
However lame lamedy lame it might be....I LOVE this show. =)
It makes me all happy inside.
So here you go...
It makes me all happy inside.
So here you go...
Rawr. Thirteen Things that SUCK!!!
As I was getting ready to get my rant on, I remembered that it was Thursday and that I haven't done one of these things in a long time. So I thought; What the hell?
Here they are, 13 Things that suck.
1. Blind Faith. This stupid feeling in my gut or voice in my head, or whatever it is, that makes me "go this way," or "do the right thing" or whatever. While everyone else is off chasing after their pleasures and I am sitting here crying because this hurts and it sucks, and on top of it everyone thinks I am a freak. Nice.
2. Not being home with your family for Christmas because of stupid blind faith.
3. Being single. Highly overrated.
4. Getting out of the blue messages, on your dead sisters birthday, from her old friends whom you really do not want to comfort or talk to.
5. Taking new jobs that you don't love (even thought you are greatful for) because you have to pay the bills somehow!!
6. Stupid people who will not talk to you or return your messages for no apparently good reason except that they are LAME!!! ppplllllbbbbb!!!!
7. Old Flames.
8. Hormones that amplify the affect of everything you are already feeling and/or trying to bury, while at the same time negating everything you feel and/or are trying to bury by making other people think you are "simply hormonal."
9. All of the above things happening simultaneously.
10. Having absoultely no control over all of the above things, or seemingly of ones faith-lead life at all.
(Thanks Jill for catching my lameness! haha! Apparently I was ranting a little too much if you catch my drift!!!)
Originally I only posted ten things, rather than 13...
So...
11. Only posting ten things when you meant to post 13!!!!
12. The writers in Hollywood not getting paid what they deserve, so that the shows I love can continue to go on and give me some small comfort!!
13. Feeling stupid the day after my rants, even though I sometimes need to just get it all out!!
Being a Christian is not always full of daises and roses...but, ya know, such is life.
Anyway, there ya have it!!
Here they are, 13 Things that suck.
1. Blind Faith. This stupid feeling in my gut or voice in my head, or whatever it is, that makes me "go this way," or "do the right thing" or whatever. While everyone else is off chasing after their pleasures and I am sitting here crying because this hurts and it sucks, and on top of it everyone thinks I am a freak. Nice.
2. Not being home with your family for Christmas because of stupid blind faith.
3. Being single. Highly overrated.
4. Getting out of the blue messages, on your dead sisters birthday, from her old friends whom you really do not want to comfort or talk to.
5. Taking new jobs that you don't love (even thought you are greatful for) because you have to pay the bills somehow!!
6. Stupid people who will not talk to you or return your messages for no apparently good reason except that they are LAME!!! ppplllllbbbbb!!!!
7. Old Flames.
8. Hormones that amplify the affect of everything you are already feeling and/or trying to bury, while at the same time negating everything you feel and/or are trying to bury by making other people think you are "simply hormonal."
9. All of the above things happening simultaneously.
10. Having absoultely no control over all of the above things, or seemingly of ones faith-lead life at all.
(Thanks Jill for catching my lameness! haha! Apparently I was ranting a little too much if you catch my drift!!!)
Originally I only posted ten things, rather than 13...
So...
11. Only posting ten things when you meant to post 13!!!!
12. The writers in Hollywood not getting paid what they deserve, so that the shows I love can continue to go on and give me some small comfort!!
13. Feeling stupid the day after my rants, even though I sometimes need to just get it all out!!
Being a Christian is not always full of daises and roses...but, ya know, such is life.
Anyway, there ya have it!!
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Things Come to Pass...
Yesterday someone I knew passed away.
One of my best friends, my big sister really...I mean, if it could be said that I have one...her father passed away. Many years ago he was the associate pastor at our church so I knew him well. Always friendly and full of life, he was a very well liked man.
I haven't seen he or his wife in some time, but I would get occassional reports from my friend. She lives very far from me, back home in Washington, and I am sorry that I am not there to give her a big hug.
Many of my good friends from the old days are scattered all over the place. I made a couple of phone calls to let people know the bad news.
One of the people I called is also an old roommate of mine. We met at work when I was 18. She knows the people who I live with now here in Texas. We go way back. Anyway, she asked me a couple of questions about them and different things. I don't know why, but it made me stop and think about being here. It made me think about what brought me here in the first place.
I haven't cried yet. I mean, I have been on the verge of tears for awhile, but they don't fall. I think the most sad thing for me, is just not being there with my friends. This is, unfortunately, how life goes sometimes.
I wouldn't say that I was incredibly close with this man, but since his family include some of my favorite people ever....well, you know. I generally spend Christmas Eve with the family. It's a three year running tradition, so this will be the first time I have missed it in awhile. It's ok. I mean, I am not sorry about being here, but there are definitely good and bad points.
I pray that one day I will be able to spend holidays with my family and friends in Washington, even if that means flying or driving long distances. I suppose I have been very lucky to have had so many good holidays with everyone so far.
I am listening to some gregorian chant Christmas carol and it is making me all mushy. heh. I love choirs. Love love love.
Work has been surprisingly good the past three days, which is a HUGE blessing, considering the difficulties I have had here, and the constant pain I carry around inside of me. The stress of work and finances does not help.
I have been blissfully numb in some ways. I mean, the things that are constantly on my mind have appeared somewhat less frequently. It was a break I needed. I know it can't last forever, but I am greatful for the respite.
Tonight I am going to do some praying though, which might cause everything to rise right up. It is just a consequence that I must pay.
God is good though and I am well in body and spirit, if just a little weary in the heart area.
It is well with my soul
One of my best friends, my big sister really...I mean, if it could be said that I have one...her father passed away. Many years ago he was the associate pastor at our church so I knew him well. Always friendly and full of life, he was a very well liked man.
I haven't seen he or his wife in some time, but I would get occassional reports from my friend. She lives very far from me, back home in Washington, and I am sorry that I am not there to give her a big hug.
Many of my good friends from the old days are scattered all over the place. I made a couple of phone calls to let people know the bad news.
One of the people I called is also an old roommate of mine. We met at work when I was 18. She knows the people who I live with now here in Texas. We go way back. Anyway, she asked me a couple of questions about them and different things. I don't know why, but it made me stop and think about being here. It made me think about what brought me here in the first place.
I haven't cried yet. I mean, I have been on the verge of tears for awhile, but they don't fall. I think the most sad thing for me, is just not being there with my friends. This is, unfortunately, how life goes sometimes.
I wouldn't say that I was incredibly close with this man, but since his family include some of my favorite people ever....well, you know. I generally spend Christmas Eve with the family. It's a three year running tradition, so this will be the first time I have missed it in awhile. It's ok. I mean, I am not sorry about being here, but there are definitely good and bad points.
I pray that one day I will be able to spend holidays with my family and friends in Washington, even if that means flying or driving long distances. I suppose I have been very lucky to have had so many good holidays with everyone so far.
I am listening to some gregorian chant Christmas carol and it is making me all mushy. heh. I love choirs. Love love love.
Work has been surprisingly good the past three days, which is a HUGE blessing, considering the difficulties I have had here, and the constant pain I carry around inside of me. The stress of work and finances does not help.
I have been blissfully numb in some ways. I mean, the things that are constantly on my mind have appeared somewhat less frequently. It was a break I needed. I know it can't last forever, but I am greatful for the respite.
Tonight I am going to do some praying though, which might cause everything to rise right up. It is just a consequence that I must pay.
God is good though and I am well in body and spirit, if just a little weary in the heart area.
It is well with my soul
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
The Way Things Are...
Whenever something political is in the news, so and so (somebody, maybe you, or your neighbor)is commenting on the bias of the media and how they always lean this way or that way. I have heard various critisisms of the New York Times for example, saying that they cater to a certain status of people and maybe they have been bought out.
Well, duh.
Everybody is in it for the money.
If I had enough money to get my opinion spread all around the globe, pertaining to world poverty, AIDS, and various other important social topics, don't you think I would do so?
So, where I was going with this is that I actually think the Writer's Strike is a sad commentary on this whole thing. A support of this fact if you will. It has only been minutely covered by the news, and I don't know about you, but I am pretty damn sure that has a lot to do with the networks that are behind the programs.
Even though I believe this to be the case, I still hold out hope that the spirit of journalism will prevail. As far as the internet is concerned, the WGA seems to be well represented, but in the news...pleh.
I guess the Networks don't want the public at large to know they are screwing the people that work for them.
Money hungry bastards.
In any case, as seems ironicly appropriate, I would not doubt that the thing they are unwilling to compromise on, the thing they swear will not last or give money to anyone (despite the fact that they are already rolling in it), will ultimately be
the thing that brings about their demise.
All hail the World Wide Web. =)
Go Writers!
Well, duh.
Everybody is in it for the money.
If I had enough money to get my opinion spread all around the globe, pertaining to world poverty, AIDS, and various other important social topics, don't you think I would do so?
So, where I was going with this is that I actually think the Writer's Strike is a sad commentary on this whole thing. A support of this fact if you will. It has only been minutely covered by the news, and I don't know about you, but I am pretty damn sure that has a lot to do with the networks that are behind the programs.
Even though I believe this to be the case, I still hold out hope that the spirit of journalism will prevail. As far as the internet is concerned, the WGA seems to be well represented, but in the news...pleh.
I guess the Networks don't want the public at large to know they are screwing the people that work for them.
Money hungry bastards.
In any case, as seems ironicly appropriate, I would not doubt that the thing they are unwilling to compromise on, the thing they swear will not last or give money to anyone (despite the fact that they are already rolling in it), will ultimately be
the thing that brings about their demise.
All hail the World Wide Web. =)
Go Writers!
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Back to Basics
Today was a good day. Green Bay pretty much wiped the turf with the Vikings. A Packer's fan just can't be sad about that. :p
I live in a household of Dallas fans though...so in a couple of weeks when we go head to head, it is going to be very interesting.
In less exciting news, there haven't really been any positive changes here lately. On the other hand, my attitude about things has begun to sway, which is a good sign. I have realized that I really need to focus on the little things. What I mean by little things are; having a positive attitude at work no matter what, praying for my friends and coworkers, finding ways to bless my very gracious friends that are letting me stay with them. Maybe these things seem like no brainers, but sometimes we get very distracted by the big picture.
I had very specific ideas about the way things were going to go here in San Antonio, and it just hasn't even come CLOSE to what I pictured.
Not to sound all negative, I love my friends and spending time with them, plus reconnecting with others has been a huge blessing. I think this is a point I am reiterating here.
I notice I have been repeating myself a little in the last few posts.
In any case, last week somebody said something to me about "building the foundation," which I HATE hearing. Anything about "foundations" makes me think that I should hide in my room and read the bible for hours and hours each day and I am REALLY bad at that.
It was food for though though, and I am realizing some other areas of my life where some good things do need to be restored and built up. So...gonna work on that.
I had a few days off this week and I go back early in the morning so this will be the first test of whether or not I can have a better attitude. Go me!
Don't get me wrong, I get along with everyone just fine, but my patience is on edge at least half of the time, and I find myself wanting to lose patience even with my customers, which is generally not like me. I feel sick of people and their whiney complaining.
Truth is however, those are a small portion of the people we deal with on a regular basis. I have always been pretty good about brushing them off....just not since I have been in San Antonio.
We'll see how it goes.
In general I can't shake this odd feeling anytime I am outside of this household, that I just don't quite click here. Like...maybe I don't belong, and I definitely do not like people as much as in Washington which genuinely surprises me. Most likely I just haven't given it enough of a chance. I am certainly going to hang in here.
Well, that is the update for this fabulous Sunday evening.
More to come...eventually! ;P
I live in a household of Dallas fans though...so in a couple of weeks when we go head to head, it is going to be very interesting.
In less exciting news, there haven't really been any positive changes here lately. On the other hand, my attitude about things has begun to sway, which is a good sign. I have realized that I really need to focus on the little things. What I mean by little things are; having a positive attitude at work no matter what, praying for my friends and coworkers, finding ways to bless my very gracious friends that are letting me stay with them. Maybe these things seem like no brainers, but sometimes we get very distracted by the big picture.
I had very specific ideas about the way things were going to go here in San Antonio, and it just hasn't even come CLOSE to what I pictured.
Not to sound all negative, I love my friends and spending time with them, plus reconnecting with others has been a huge blessing. I think this is a point I am reiterating here.
I notice I have been repeating myself a little in the last few posts.
In any case, last week somebody said something to me about "building the foundation," which I HATE hearing. Anything about "foundations" makes me think that I should hide in my room and read the bible for hours and hours each day and I am REALLY bad at that.
It was food for though though, and I am realizing some other areas of my life where some good things do need to be restored and built up. So...gonna work on that.
I had a few days off this week and I go back early in the morning so this will be the first test of whether or not I can have a better attitude. Go me!
Don't get me wrong, I get along with everyone just fine, but my patience is on edge at least half of the time, and I find myself wanting to lose patience even with my customers, which is generally not like me. I feel sick of people and their whiney complaining.
Truth is however, those are a small portion of the people we deal with on a regular basis. I have always been pretty good about brushing them off....just not since I have been in San Antonio.
We'll see how it goes.
In general I can't shake this odd feeling anytime I am outside of this household, that I just don't quite click here. Like...maybe I don't belong, and I definitely do not like people as much as in Washington which genuinely surprises me. Most likely I just haven't given it enough of a chance. I am certainly going to hang in here.
Well, that is the update for this fabulous Sunday evening.
More to come...eventually! ;P
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
More on the writer's strike...
I found this insightful video on youtube, reguarding the writer's strike. Of course, it's full of things I personally already knew, but hopefully someone who reads this blog will find it helpful. In case there was any doubt as to my being 100% behind the WGA, let me just say that I wish I was in L.A. so I could drop off some donuts and tasty beverages. =)
Something else, just for sheer amusement value...
Something else, just for sheer amusement value...
Monday, November 05, 2007
Writers Strike, etc.
Yesterday I was reading a lot of very insightful information on this website: www.unitedhollywood.com
As you know if you read this blog much at all, I was interested in screenwriting for awhile. Actually, writing specifically for tv, mostly. I think it would rock. I have a few favorite writers, among those the oft mentioned Joss Whedon, and also Jane Espenson, who is linked on the side of this page.
Anyway, I definitely hope the writers get what they deserve.
I think it is pretty sad that they have to fight so hard for what they already deserve. Without them, we would never have the shows we love in the first place.
I wish I lived in New York or L.A. as I would so join them on the picket lines to show my support.
Today I have been doing the job search once again. Oh, and did I mention when I blogged last that I had checked out that church?? I really liked it.
Anyway, things are made difficult by this wretched sense of waiting. Like when you are teaching your dog manners before giving them a treat. "Waaaiiiit...wait for it.....okay now!" Except, I am still waiting for the "okay now" part.
I had a wonderful email from my friend Beth this morning. She is in Philadelphia working with Teach for America. We have been having some great dialogue...interesting comparison of cities.
I think we have taken for granted that the rest of the country is like the west. In fact, it is QUITE different.
I come from Washington...the land of "green." I do mean that in more than one way, but let's focus on the environment if you will. Not even the hard core environmental issues, but just the seemingly simple things like...recycling paper and not using styrafoam? Yeah, Texas....waaaay behind in that class. :p Not to mention the litterers!!! Good Lord!
Of course, Seattle is listed as one of the most educated cities in the nation, and my friend who works in Corpus reminded me that a lot of people here are poorly educated. Those who lack education tend to care less about environmental issues and the like, because they don't really know why they should care, and also because they often lack the financial means to get things started, or to buy more expensive "green" products.
Tis true, 'tis true.
Also, Beth told me that people in Philadelphia know of Seattle. It is recognized as the home of Starbucks, and generally thought to be somewhere in the Midwest!
:p
Interesting information.
I myself am a college dropout who barely got through high school and that astounds me. I don't consider myself to be a well educated person and even so....Wow.
Goodness. This is two posts right in a row! What in the world is going on! Jill, Lara, try not to have a heart attack! :p
As you know if you read this blog much at all, I was interested in screenwriting for awhile. Actually, writing specifically for tv, mostly. I think it would rock. I have a few favorite writers, among those the oft mentioned Joss Whedon, and also Jane Espenson, who is linked on the side of this page.
Anyway, I definitely hope the writers get what they deserve.
I think it is pretty sad that they have to fight so hard for what they already deserve. Without them, we would never have the shows we love in the first place.
I wish I lived in New York or L.A. as I would so join them on the picket lines to show my support.
Today I have been doing the job search once again. Oh, and did I mention when I blogged last that I had checked out that church?? I really liked it.
Anyway, things are made difficult by this wretched sense of waiting. Like when you are teaching your dog manners before giving them a treat. "Waaaiiiit...wait for it.....okay now!" Except, I am still waiting for the "okay now" part.
I had a wonderful email from my friend Beth this morning. She is in Philadelphia working with Teach for America. We have been having some great dialogue...interesting comparison of cities.
I think we have taken for granted that the rest of the country is like the west. In fact, it is QUITE different.
I come from Washington...the land of "green." I do mean that in more than one way, but let's focus on the environment if you will. Not even the hard core environmental issues, but just the seemingly simple things like...recycling paper and not using styrafoam? Yeah, Texas....waaaay behind in that class. :p Not to mention the litterers!!! Good Lord!
Of course, Seattle is listed as one of the most educated cities in the nation, and my friend who works in Corpus reminded me that a lot of people here are poorly educated. Those who lack education tend to care less about environmental issues and the like, because they don't really know why they should care, and also because they often lack the financial means to get things started, or to buy more expensive "green" products.
Tis true, 'tis true.
Also, Beth told me that people in Philadelphia know of Seattle. It is recognized as the home of Starbucks, and generally thought to be somewhere in the Midwest!
:p
Interesting information.
I myself am a college dropout who barely got through high school and that astounds me. I don't consider myself to be a well educated person and even so....Wow.
Goodness. This is two posts right in a row! What in the world is going on! Jill, Lara, try not to have a heart attack! :p
Saturday, November 03, 2007
My Other Life
I am a wretched blogger. Sometimes I have massive blogging phases, but let's face it, overall I suck.
I feel like all I do is complain, so since things have been rather stressful I have wanted to blog even less, afraid that it will end up sounding like a big bitch fest. What I ought to do is to make myself think of something everyday to be greatful for, and then I can blog that. I probably won't do it often, but it's a nice thought. :p
So today I checked out a new church and it was pretty cool. I am still a bit wary of church in general, but so far these guys sound really cool, and the worship was great which is a serious bonus. All of the other stuff I can do on my own at home...it's the big communal worship service I miss most.
I had a chance recently to see an old friend who I had not spoken to in five or six years. We lost touch. She now has a large family. They have also been through their own things with the church, but have managed to come through better for it. It was good to see her and her husband and family, and know that they are doing well.
Hooking up with old friends has definitely been a benefit of being here.
Lately when I am going to bed, turning off my light and praying as I lay down, the world seems to change on me. I feel as if my life is not my own. Maybe none of our lives are actually our own, but you know what I mean....you usually don't think about it that much. As soon as I can sit here and things are quiet, stuff that has been hidden throughout the day, appears suddenly before me. Now I don't mean like...all of my issues suddenly come out at night or anything like that. I am fully aware of lifes stress allll day long. :p
This is different. I start to pray and I just find these things stirring up within me. Like, I guess just having faith to pray for people and things that don't seem very hopeful on the outside. On the inside, what I feel is a completely different matter. It's as if I am part of some great idea. It feels like it is important RIGHT NOW.
Not to say that I ever thought prayer did not matter....but this is a little different than most of my prayer time. It feels like...something is going on right now, and I can be a part of it, if I will. *shrug*
In any case, I find myself praying very random things.
As usual, I cannot help but wonder at the future. As I sit here, making plans, starting to attend a new church, and meeting a potential new roommate, I find myself in a strange place. Feeling as if there is a big PAUSE button on my life right now and I am just WAITING for something. What it is, I do not know, it's just this strange feeling I have. Not always comfortable, but usually able to be ignored. I find it odd though, as my every intention was to come and get all settled in. I have peace with this city, although there are definitely a few things that make me crazy...(more on that later)!
Then again, I still love western Washington and thought I would stay there forever. hehehe.
What can I say?!
I don't live the same life as other people.
Of course, sometimes I desperately want to. :p
In the end, I suppose I would have gotten desperately bored in someone else's life. The Lord keeps moving me, keeps challenging me...
Even when I somtimes feel like I am the same stinky 19 year old I started out being, I know that I am not. Even when I feel like I complain too much and am ungreatful, I also know that hard times have taught me what it is to be greatful. I can look inside myself now and know what I am sincere or insincere.
Yup.
Life is about learning I guess. Constantly learning.
Well, that's all the rambling Amanda has in her tonight.
Goodnight my friends in the blogosphere.
I feel like all I do is complain, so since things have been rather stressful I have wanted to blog even less, afraid that it will end up sounding like a big bitch fest. What I ought to do is to make myself think of something everyday to be greatful for, and then I can blog that. I probably won't do it often, but it's a nice thought. :p
So today I checked out a new church and it was pretty cool. I am still a bit wary of church in general, but so far these guys sound really cool, and the worship was great which is a serious bonus. All of the other stuff I can do on my own at home...it's the big communal worship service I miss most.
I had a chance recently to see an old friend who I had not spoken to in five or six years. We lost touch. She now has a large family. They have also been through their own things with the church, but have managed to come through better for it. It was good to see her and her husband and family, and know that they are doing well.
Hooking up with old friends has definitely been a benefit of being here.
Lately when I am going to bed, turning off my light and praying as I lay down, the world seems to change on me. I feel as if my life is not my own. Maybe none of our lives are actually our own, but you know what I mean....you usually don't think about it that much. As soon as I can sit here and things are quiet, stuff that has been hidden throughout the day, appears suddenly before me. Now I don't mean like...all of my issues suddenly come out at night or anything like that. I am fully aware of lifes stress allll day long. :p
This is different. I start to pray and I just find these things stirring up within me. Like, I guess just having faith to pray for people and things that don't seem very hopeful on the outside. On the inside, what I feel is a completely different matter. It's as if I am part of some great idea. It feels like it is important RIGHT NOW.
Not to say that I ever thought prayer did not matter....but this is a little different than most of my prayer time. It feels like...something is going on right now, and I can be a part of it, if I will. *shrug*
In any case, I find myself praying very random things.
As usual, I cannot help but wonder at the future. As I sit here, making plans, starting to attend a new church, and meeting a potential new roommate, I find myself in a strange place. Feeling as if there is a big PAUSE button on my life right now and I am just WAITING for something. What it is, I do not know, it's just this strange feeling I have. Not always comfortable, but usually able to be ignored. I find it odd though, as my every intention was to come and get all settled in. I have peace with this city, although there are definitely a few things that make me crazy...(more on that later)!
Then again, I still love western Washington and thought I would stay there forever. hehehe.
What can I say?!
I don't live the same life as other people.
Of course, sometimes I desperately want to. :p
In the end, I suppose I would have gotten desperately bored in someone else's life. The Lord keeps moving me, keeps challenging me...
Even when I somtimes feel like I am the same stinky 19 year old I started out being, I know that I am not. Even when I feel like I complain too much and am ungreatful, I also know that hard times have taught me what it is to be greatful. I can look inside myself now and know what I am sincere or insincere.
Yup.
Life is about learning I guess. Constantly learning.
Well, that's all the rambling Amanda has in her tonight.
Goodnight my friends in the blogosphere.
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