Okay, I know that we all have our varying opinions on politics.
I did not vote in the primaries, and I have been withholding my decision on who I am going to vote for in November.
I confess however, that I have been leaning towards voting for Obama.
(Ryan, try to control your apoplexy!)
I know that I don't want to vote for Hillary. I'm pretty sure that I don't want to vote for McCain.
I'm not going to vote based on one situation alone, however, I am not thrilled about this whole Jeremiah Wright thing.
Having a lot of church going experience myself, I know the kind of power and influence a pastor can wield. If you stay in a church for 20 years, there is a pretty good chance that you are at least mostly in agreement with the church leadership.
If not, I can't conceive how you could sit there Sunday after Sunday.
I didn't leave my own church based on a serious difference in beliefs. I left because I didn't like the way those beliefs were lived out. That alone made me antsy and miserable until I finally made a break with them.
Can I judge a 30 year ministry on a few clips from tv though, that is the real question. Do I know that this man is inherantly evil and has therefore lead Barack Obama to the dark side?
Voting for president always scares me. It's a big deal. What if I vote for a bad person?? There is always that chance. I have liked candidates before who did not end up being what I hoped.
Having said that, I still think we need a change.
It has been hammered into me for a long time that I am a Republican, that I vote for Republicans.
Why?
Because they generally oppose abortion and gay marriage? Is that it? Are those the big issues??
Right now I am concerned that gas costs 5$ a gallon, and the economy is in the tank. I am concerned that we let people rack up thousands of dollars in debts that they can't pay for, and that the national debt keeps climbing while everybody is fighting over other more petty issues.
I wish that I could vote for the best person, rather than a party favorite. Right now I just wish we could see a change. I have nothing personally against George W. Bush. In fact, I am sure that in regular life he is a very nice man. I am not going to sit here and bitch about his opinions and what he has and hasn't done. The reality is however, that we keep voting for rich, white men. It's not that being white and wealthy make you inherantly bad. I am not saying that. What I am saying, is that it might be nice to have a different perspective for once.
I don't know.
Frankly I am just completely frustrated about politics and I am sure that a lot of other people feel the same way.
Anyway, we will see who gets the vote, Hillary or Obama, and then I will decide who is the lesser of two evils.
Pretty sad to look at it that way, but there it is.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Monday, March 17, 2008
*Yawn*
Life is so bizarre and unexplainable.
On Saturday I had the most uncomfortable work day. I don't know why.
I liked all the people I was working with. The store manager kept telling me to do things I already knew, and I wanted to make faces at him. I was feeling terrible and old. This other guy who I worked with almost the entire day was being very quiet, although he did not seem cranky. I tried to engage him in conversation a couple of times, but it was not effective, and it was a pretty slow day which meant that there was a lot of silence.
It felt like ackward silence to me. Pleh.
I haven't been here terribly long, so I don't know everyone super well. That could be part of the issue, just expecting people to behave differently than they do. However, I have worked with this guy quite a lot already and he is generally friendlier and more talkative with me.
It was a lousy day and I was glad to go home.
I was supposed to have lunch with my friend Dave, but he bailed. Actually, he never even called me at all, grr. Other tentative plans fell through as well, so I decided to be charitable and babysit for my brother. I was there until 2a.m. It wasn't a bit surprise, but I was still unhappy about it. I slept in gloriously this morning though.
I am hoping that tomorrow I am going to wake up in a much better mood than I have recently been in.
Oooooohhhhhhh I almost had a heart attack when I checked my gmail inbox tonight as an afterthought, and there was a comment notification from Chris. NO WAY!!! I totally thought it wasn't real at first. lol!
On that note, I am going to crawl into my covers and pray for cheerfulness and a positive outlook for my Monday. Ha. :p
On Saturday I had the most uncomfortable work day. I don't know why.
I liked all the people I was working with. The store manager kept telling me to do things I already knew, and I wanted to make faces at him. I was feeling terrible and old. This other guy who I worked with almost the entire day was being very quiet, although he did not seem cranky. I tried to engage him in conversation a couple of times, but it was not effective, and it was a pretty slow day which meant that there was a lot of silence.
It felt like ackward silence to me. Pleh.
I haven't been here terribly long, so I don't know everyone super well. That could be part of the issue, just expecting people to behave differently than they do. However, I have worked with this guy quite a lot already and he is generally friendlier and more talkative with me.
It was a lousy day and I was glad to go home.
I was supposed to have lunch with my friend Dave, but he bailed. Actually, he never even called me at all, grr. Other tentative plans fell through as well, so I decided to be charitable and babysit for my brother. I was there until 2a.m. It wasn't a bit surprise, but I was still unhappy about it. I slept in gloriously this morning though.
I am hoping that tomorrow I am going to wake up in a much better mood than I have recently been in.
Oooooohhhhhhh I almost had a heart attack when I checked my gmail inbox tonight as an afterthought, and there was a comment notification from Chris. NO WAY!!! I totally thought it wasn't real at first. lol!
On that note, I am going to crawl into my covers and pray for cheerfulness and a positive outlook for my Monday. Ha. :p
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Language of the Heart
It's getting late and luckily I do not have to work in the morning. I am going to sleep in and then lay around and read for as long as possible...because that sounds fabulous. =)
During high school, on some choir trip, my friends Chris and Jerry made me listen to this song called "How Did You Find Me Here." It was a beautiful song. A big favorite of theirs, I heard it mentioned on several occasions. After high school when I was missing my friends, I went hunting for the album it belonged to and that is when I really became a David Wilcox fan.
David is a folk singer, and I love his variety of music. Nice, chill, acoustic guitar.
Tonight my friend Jan was over and we were watching all these old eighties songs and early nineties songs on youtube. After she left my song fest continued and I ended up looking for David, as the only album of his I had has long since dissappeared. I miss it. A lot.
I'm not sure it is really the music I ought to be listening to, as it reminds me of my friends, and I don't need any help there this week.
I am feeling rather sad. Melancholy. Don't get me wrong, everything is fine with me. I am blessed and taken care of.
Even so, I can't help missing those friends of mine and wishing that I could see them again.
These kinds of feelings come and go. Maybe I am a bit more emotional than some people, or maybe am just realizing that there are a couple of really great people that I let wander out of my life with no resistance on my part at all. Whatever the case, I cannot help the heartache I feel, but do the best that I can despite it.
OH!!! By the way...yesterday this guy I knew from high school totally walked right into our Starbucks! I hadn't seen him in...Oh, almost ten years. We used to be kind of friends and write letters when he was in the Navy the year after high school. It was so BIZARRE especially considering the state of my emotions this week!!! I was like...NO WAY! We had a nice short chat. It was just weird. I ran into another girl last week. Not sure if I mentioned that. I don't run into people I knew back then very often, so both people were pretty unexpected. Good to see them and know that they are doing well though. I really liked seeing them both.
So I finally got around to writing my three and a half page letter. I mailed it this morning and now I just wait. I don't think I am really worried about what my friend is going to say...just how long it is going to take me to hear back from her, and how different things are now, and trying to move forward from this point on.
People are always astonished by my great memory. I am telling you though, it is a blessing and a curse. I remember some things as if they happened yesterday. Even in my heart it is as if it were only yesterday.
But it wasn't.
It feels near when it was really far far away. A long time ago. It kind of sucks. ...In case you wanted to know. hehe :p
Lara and Jill, are you on Facebook? Enquiring Amanda's want to know. :p
*hugs*
Goodnight all.
During high school, on some choir trip, my friends Chris and Jerry made me listen to this song called "How Did You Find Me Here." It was a beautiful song. A big favorite of theirs, I heard it mentioned on several occasions. After high school when I was missing my friends, I went hunting for the album it belonged to and that is when I really became a David Wilcox fan.
David is a folk singer, and I love his variety of music. Nice, chill, acoustic guitar.
Tonight my friend Jan was over and we were watching all these old eighties songs and early nineties songs on youtube. After she left my song fest continued and I ended up looking for David, as the only album of his I had has long since dissappeared. I miss it. A lot.
I'm not sure it is really the music I ought to be listening to, as it reminds me of my friends, and I don't need any help there this week.
I am feeling rather sad. Melancholy. Don't get me wrong, everything is fine with me. I am blessed and taken care of.
Even so, I can't help missing those friends of mine and wishing that I could see them again.
These kinds of feelings come and go. Maybe I am a bit more emotional than some people, or maybe am just realizing that there are a couple of really great people that I let wander out of my life with no resistance on my part at all. Whatever the case, I cannot help the heartache I feel, but do the best that I can despite it.
OH!!! By the way...yesterday this guy I knew from high school totally walked right into our Starbucks! I hadn't seen him in...Oh, almost ten years. We used to be kind of friends and write letters when he was in the Navy the year after high school. It was so BIZARRE especially considering the state of my emotions this week!!! I was like...NO WAY! We had a nice short chat. It was just weird. I ran into another girl last week. Not sure if I mentioned that. I don't run into people I knew back then very often, so both people were pretty unexpected. Good to see them and know that they are doing well though. I really liked seeing them both.
So I finally got around to writing my three and a half page letter. I mailed it this morning and now I just wait. I don't think I am really worried about what my friend is going to say...just how long it is going to take me to hear back from her, and how different things are now, and trying to move forward from this point on.
People are always astonished by my great memory. I am telling you though, it is a blessing and a curse. I remember some things as if they happened yesterday. Even in my heart it is as if it were only yesterday.
But it wasn't.
It feels near when it was really far far away. A long time ago. It kind of sucks. ...In case you wanted to know. hehe :p
Lara and Jill, are you on Facebook? Enquiring Amanda's want to know. :p
*hugs*
Goodnight all.
Friday, March 07, 2008
Spring is attempting to show it's face.
Today I actually didn't have to wear a coat at all. It was a beautiful thing. Wonderful in every way in fact. =)
It is nearly spring and I am boy crazy. Okay, actually I am not really. I generally cannot be referred to as "boy crazy," however, I am hearing the luring sound of birds and bees and silly crushes that mean nothing. :p
Tomorrow I work early and not a really long shift, so I am planning on writing a letter to an old friend. Did I mention that in my last post?? Yeah, well I have been meaning to do it this week and kept putting it off. I want to do it when I really have a lot of time to sit and write forever without being interrupted. I am both looking forward to it and dreading it, mostly for reasons that are too much to explain.
On another note...
Chris Davlin! Where ARE you?!?!?!
Now that I have said your name on my blog, perhaps you will randomly google yourself and see that I want to know. hehehe. Sneaky. Sly even.
Seriously though, I haven't seen my friend Chris Davlin in five kajillion years and I miss him. We were pals ya know?! I want him to come to town and drink some coffee with me (or tea), and then go do something really silly as if we were teenagers again. That would be fun. In fact, that would be so wonderful that I wouldn't even have to do anything fun for the whole rest of the year!!! I would just glide by on the joy of that one occasion!!!!
You hear that Chris Davlin?!?!?!?!
COME OUT OF YOUR HIDEY HOLE!!!!!! =)
*sigh*
My heart is kind of sad this week. I mentioned this before. It's nothing unbearable. It will pass. Still, I just can't help it nor seem to explain it. Luckily, other than that I am pretty well. Money is tight, but what's really new there?!?! Ha! Life is good and I can't really complain about it...too much. :p At least, now that it's warming up a bit!!
Oh, there is nothing like a good cold front to make you truly appreciate spring. I feel as if it is the most glorious thing in the world!!
Okay, I have to get up really early to go to work, so I probably should head in that direction.
Listening to: Indigo Girls "Swamp Ophelia" So Awesome.
It is nearly spring and I am boy crazy. Okay, actually I am not really. I generally cannot be referred to as "boy crazy," however, I am hearing the luring sound of birds and bees and silly crushes that mean nothing. :p
Tomorrow I work early and not a really long shift, so I am planning on writing a letter to an old friend. Did I mention that in my last post?? Yeah, well I have been meaning to do it this week and kept putting it off. I want to do it when I really have a lot of time to sit and write forever without being interrupted. I am both looking forward to it and dreading it, mostly for reasons that are too much to explain.
On another note...
Chris Davlin! Where ARE you?!?!?!
Now that I have said your name on my blog, perhaps you will randomly google yourself and see that I want to know. hehehe. Sneaky. Sly even.
Seriously though, I haven't seen my friend Chris Davlin in five kajillion years and I miss him. We were pals ya know?! I want him to come to town and drink some coffee with me (or tea), and then go do something really silly as if we were teenagers again. That would be fun. In fact, that would be so wonderful that I wouldn't even have to do anything fun for the whole rest of the year!!! I would just glide by on the joy of that one occasion!!!!
You hear that Chris Davlin?!?!?!?!
COME OUT OF YOUR HIDEY HOLE!!!!!! =)
*sigh*
My heart is kind of sad this week. I mentioned this before. It's nothing unbearable. It will pass. Still, I just can't help it nor seem to explain it. Luckily, other than that I am pretty well. Money is tight, but what's really new there?!?! Ha! Life is good and I can't really complain about it...too much. :p At least, now that it's warming up a bit!!
Oh, there is nothing like a good cold front to make you truly appreciate spring. I feel as if it is the most glorious thing in the world!!
Okay, I have to get up really early to go to work, so I probably should head in that direction.
Listening to: Indigo Girls "Swamp Ophelia" So Awesome.
Back after a long absence...
Well, I am finally a bit settled into the new apartment and Spokane is going just fine so far.
I am getting used to a new laptop so my typing feels a bit off.
Currently I am so exhausted that I think I might fall asleep typing this at any second!
Today was a long day. It ended with a nice chat on the phone with my friend Caleb in L.A. who I have not spoken to in awhile, so that was nice. =)
Yay for my friends!!
Work is going pretty well here. I don't really have complaints. Of course I will add a lot more information later, it's just that right now I can barely keep my eyes open!! Oh, and such a headache! I am having a nice glass of wine though, which is only helping me to go to sleep sooner.
The past couple of days I have been taking a trip down memory lane...mostly due to the fact that I really need to write a letter to my best friend from high school, etc. I got an address for her recently and it's just been tooooo long! Anyway, I was thinking about her and the sad direction her life has taken, and also my friend Chris who we used to hang out with. I don't know why, but it makes my heart sad. I wish they were still in my life.
Anyway, hopefully this is my reentry to the blogosphere. I have been reading a bit lately, and one of these days I will have to post a list so that Joe can make fun of me for being ten (or however many) books behind!! haha!!
To sleep for now!
I am getting used to a new laptop so my typing feels a bit off.
Currently I am so exhausted that I think I might fall asleep typing this at any second!
Today was a long day. It ended with a nice chat on the phone with my friend Caleb in L.A. who I have not spoken to in awhile, so that was nice. =)
Yay for my friends!!
Work is going pretty well here. I don't really have complaints. Of course I will add a lot more information later, it's just that right now I can barely keep my eyes open!! Oh, and such a headache! I am having a nice glass of wine though, which is only helping me to go to sleep sooner.
The past couple of days I have been taking a trip down memory lane...mostly due to the fact that I really need to write a letter to my best friend from high school, etc. I got an address for her recently and it's just been tooooo long! Anyway, I was thinking about her and the sad direction her life has taken, and also my friend Chris who we used to hang out with. I don't know why, but it makes my heart sad. I wish they were still in my life.
Anyway, hopefully this is my reentry to the blogosphere. I have been reading a bit lately, and one of these days I will have to post a list so that Joe can make fun of me for being ten (or however many) books behind!! haha!!
To sleep for now!
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